I'm losing my mind

My name is Michele Henry. I'm 32 years-old. And I'm losing my mind.

It's only a bit funny.

This week alone I've locked myself out of my house twice. It's not even Wednesday. Like someone 82 years my senior I forget where I put things, such as the phone, my lunch, my frickin' keys, even if I touched them, like, a second ago.

Words escape me. Names - forget about it. I have no idea who anyone is anymore. I just say "hey, you, cutie," when I'm staring at someone (such as my husband) and can't remember what to call him.

The most frightening part is that "they" say this is normal. Apparently, pregnant women become absent minded, forgetful, doofus-like.

What the hell kind of evolutionary edge could that possible give us?? I can't see how not remembering where I have to be when, or who I spoke to on the phone for an hour yesterday, could benefit my life or the life of the baby currently slurping up my amniotic fluid.

Wouldn't it be better (for everyone) if pregnant women got super brain? We're expected to work during the day - without lettin' 'em see us sweat - and still be awake to converse socially with people in the evening time.

So, why does nature make us, well, less competent? dumber?

I have not yet found a suitable answer. I'm still looking. I'll let you know when I figure it out. If, that is, I still remember the question.   

Comments

[New Mommy Too]

Hate to say it, but mommy brain gets worse *after* you give birth. I've been in conversations where words coming out of my mouth make no sense at all. I think we develop mental windshield wipers that activate as soon as a thought comes up which leads to sentences ending mid-way through and asking the same question repeatedly because as simple and clear as the answer is, nothing "sticks".

Good luck!

[roxanne]

I understand what you mean about people that seem to take pleasure in your pain.

If I hear one more person tell me it only gets worst after the baby, or just you wait... etc., I simply cannot be responsible for what i say or do to them.

I know to expect the unexpected. I know I don't know what it's going to be like. Like most moms to be I have those fears and I don't need someone else to make them worse.

Don't feel bad about locking yourself out of the house. I went to the grocery store to buy one item. I bought it but some how it didn't make it to my house. I had left it in the cart and was to embarrassed to drive back to the store to get it.

[Danny Jin]

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I am a father and my sun is 7 years old.
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