Kate quit around the same time I did - six weeks ago.
She is about the same age.
She has smoked for about as long.
Because there are some who think this blog is whiny and silly, I thought you might like to hear how someone else is coping.
Kate is funny.
"I smoked for 16 years, which is precisely half my life. I'm 32."
Why did you start smoking?
"Cause I thought it was cool. I don't know. I remember trying to learn how to smoke. I remember taking two drags and feeling like I was going to barf. I was, like, the leader. I was probably responsible for a whole bunch of people smoking."
How much did you smoke?
"I would say I probably pretended I smoked half a pack a day but it was probably closer to a full pack a day."
Why did you decide to quit six weeks ago?
"I got married last year and that was a big (motivator) because I was a smoking bride, which was not a cool thing. I had to sneak off with the bridesmaids to go smoke. Nothing says class like a white wedding dress and a cigarette hanging out of the side of your mouth."
How are you doing in this attempt compared to previous tries?
"This time, I'm now actually officially farther than I've ever gone before. In previous attempts I was trying to see how long I could last without smoking. This time I'm trying to live without smoking, which is a totally different approach. I don’t think there's anything you can do to prepare for this."
What has it been like?
"It's been awful. Absolutely awful. The first four days are the toughest. Then you're not pacing anymore, you don't have this level of simmering rage all the time. After that you have this state of depression. It's almost like I'm grieving. I wake up and think something terrible has happened and I can't remember what it is, and then I remember ... it’s that I can't smoke. Coffee isn't the same. Booze isn't the same I just have to get over it and learn to live without smoking."
How has your husband coped?
"He's a non-smoker (but) he's been awesome. He's been totally staying out of my way. I think one of the things non-smokers have a hard time understanding is that this is a battle every day. I still need you to say, 'Good job. I’m proud of you. Keep going.' It’s not over. It’s not going to be over for a while.”
Any downsides to quitting?
"I put on eight pounds. I don’t know how (my husband) feels about that. But I can be fat and a non-smoker. That’s okay. Because I've quit, I sort of decided that I am allowed to do anything else I want. If I want the shoes, I can buy the shoes. If I want to have a latte every day this week, I can. I’ve become a little bit indulgent."